I think I was about 10 the first time I heard her sing. She took me by surprise and has inspired me tremendously ever since. Vickie Winans is one of the greatest singers I have ever heard in my entire life. Later on I was introduced to the styling of Vanessa Bell-Armstrong and the class of Tramaine Hawkins. All three have played a major role in my life musically and otherwise.
I knew I wanted to be a singer when I was 10. I think I came to that realization after hearing my (distant) mentor. Singing came naturally to me. I was 11 when I wrote my first song and I realized that I wanted to pursue singing as a profession. Through the years I grew vocally but more excitingly, my writing ability flourished.
As I matured as a writer much of my writing came through pain. I think pain is one of the things throughout life that invokes change – be it intentional or otherwise. Although much of my writing has come from painful experiences it has also caused me to experience great pleasure. My first song was very generic and not of much substance but through it I realized that God had given me something special and if I gave it back to Him He’d do things through it I could only imagine.
I received the Holy Spirit with the evidence of speaking in tongues when I was 12. I remember praying “when you save me anchor me Father so that I don’t stray from you.” I didn’t want to go through anything in order to know that He was good. My humble prayer was indicative of my level of maturity. I didn’t realize that there was a process God wanted me to go through in order to live out the call He’d placed on my life. I’ve been relentlessly in pursuit of music ever since not realizing that God was using music to pursue me.
I have experienced so much as a musician. At one point I’d decided to give up on music. As I have gained a deeper understanding of the industry, I realized that there are set procedures, practices, and rules to being a successful artist. I’ve come to hate the term artist because I’ve realized that what and how I do what I do does NOT represent me as the artist but more like the pencil.
As a child being a singer was to me, a dream. I thought at 16 I would be the gospel artist I’d dreamed about, however, I didn’t realize there was a process God was taking me through. Now at 27, God has revealed to me that it was not merely a dream but a call to draw me into relationship with Him and to use me to encourage others to pursue a relationship with Him. I often tell people that I like music but I LOVE Jesus and if He required it of me I would gladly give it up for His will. I pray thy as you read this you take a minute to evaluate and examine your dreams and goals and Seek God’s call on your life. Your dreams/goals may very well be what God has called you to however knowing for sure the call God has for you will render you a life FULFILLED.
Growing up Vanessa, Tramaine, and Vickie taught me how to be a sassy, classy soulful singer but have also through their lives understood and walked out their call, showing me an example far greater than being a professional singer. God has allowed me to experience His wonder and love for me that is beyond anything being a musician or artist can render. It is the call to relationship, the call to obedience, and the call to the realization of all He has for me. For that I am eternally grateful.